Thursday, June 2, 2011

Day 21: June 2, 2011

Explain your Scars:

My biggest scar is on my right arm. I fell off a skateboard when I was 18. I had played volleyball with my dad, and I was leaving to go home. He still had to ref another game, so I we had driven separate cars. My skateboard was in my car, and I saw it and thought, "Hey, an empty school, the perfect place to practice."

So I started practicing. I was trying to learn to ollie, the basic jump you need to start learning tricks. You tip the front of the board up by stepping hard on the back, jump, balance your feet evenly on the board, and land squarely.


I practiced for awhile but I wasn't making much progress. Then I stepped on the board, and it started moving. The front wheels hit a tiny little rock. If I had been going faster, I would have rolled right over it. But I wasn't going fast enough, and it stopped the front wheels. I kept going. I was falling face first over the front of the board and I thought, "I should put something in front of my face." So I lifted my arm. I landed on it. I jumped up and cradled it to my chest, the pain so big, it took me a minute to start crying. I picked up the skateboard with my other arm and went to find my dad in the gym.

He was still reffing the volleyball game, but he called a time out when I came in crying, hugging my skateboard, bleeding all over my brand new Calvin Klein sweatshirt. He had a friend who was there who was an EMT take a look at it. He said it was probably broken. It might be badly sprained, but was probably broken. My dad asked me if I could wait till he finished reffing his game. I said sure, and went to try and wash the blood out of my sweatshirt in the bathroom. When I was done with this, I went to check the game. Still going on. I went to my car and got a book, went back to the bathroom and wrapped my arm in cold wet paper towels, and sat down to read.

When the game was over, my dad had one of the players and his wife help us get my car back to my house, then he took me to the emergency room. Because I was 18 I had to fill out and sign the paperwork myself. With my broken right arm. It was awhile before I was admitted. They asked me if I wanted pain meds and at first I said no. I wanted to know what was going on, what was going to happen. I had x-rays, and tests. They kept asking me if I fell on something. There was a deep hole in one part of my arm, and they wanted to know if I fell on a sharp rock or stick. I told them no, there hadn't been anything on the ground, that's why I was practicing there. The x-rays were a puzzle to them too. Apparently the bones in my arm were straight, lined up, with this space between them where they were broken. Usually when a person comes in with a broken arm, the arm is still hanging out at the angle it broke. When I sat up, and cradled my arm, I had set it.
The hole that was bleeding was were my bone had poked out of my skin, then been pulled back in when I pulled it.

After an hour and a half, I still didn't know what was going on,they weren't telling me any of this, so I asked for meds. They knocked me out. They scheduled surgery for 6am the next morning. They woke me up a 5:30 to take me to surgery and knock me out again.

I woke up in the recovery room where I asked every nurse or tech that passed me for a comb or brush. I guess I was really worried about my hair.

I was in the hospital for four days. I have a long scar on each side of my arm where they opened it to operate lengthwise and a short horizontal scar where they stitched up the puncture wound.
I have fifteen metal screws, and two long metal plates in my right arm. I can set off airport alarms, if they are turned up high enough. I always wear short sleeves if I'm traveling so I can explain the metal.



Wednesday, June 1, 2011

Day 20: June 1, 2011

A regret you have:

I actually have a couple of these. I try not to, because I really believe the choices you make in life lead to the life you're living, and I try to take responsibility for my choices and the consequences thereof, but there are a few things I would have liked to done differently.

Regret one: I wish I had stayed in Minor League softball for one year. I was promoted to the Majors after a month, but I was a young player on a strong older team, and I ended up in the outfield. If I had stayed in minors, I would have been put in for the pitching camp over the winter, and I might have joined a team as junior pitcher.

Of course, if I had changed that, I wouldn't have had one of the best moments of my life in high school at a church softball game, where I was the only girl in the outfield. I was in right field, my brother was right center, our foreign exchange student Sebastien was in left center, and his friend Wayne was left. Our church was playing a bar team, and those batters looked at that outfield, and aimed for me. I caught most of what they hit to me, making that a big miscalculation on their parts.

The best moment was at the end of the game, we were up by one, they had two runners on. We had two outs, and their best hitter was coming out. He had watched his teammates bat to me, but he thought he could do better. He hit the ball. Before the bat even hit the ball, I was running. I got to the end of the field where the orange plastic webbing marked the outer reaches of the baseball diamond. I jumped. I caught that ball in the top of my glove like a snow cone. Perched in the webbing. Everyone held their breaths as I landed. Would I drop it? I didn't. I got the third out, my team won. My brother ran to me from right center, and picked me up and carried me in on his shoulders with that ball held above my head. It was amazing. One of my best memories of my brother.

Regret two: I wish I had done Running Start in high school. I would have graduated high school with an AA fourteen years ago, instead of finally earning one last year.

Of course, then I would have been a 14 year old college freshman, with nothing at all in common with my classmates.

Regret three: I wish I had been smarter with my money and my time in my twenties. I wish I had saved and planned, and worked, and gone back to school then instead of waiting till I was nearly 30. I finally got it together for J'sai, but I kind of wish I had gotten it together for me.

One thing I don't regret: My time in Phoenix. I learned so much about myself, and of course, J'sai came from that time.

Sunday, May 29, 2011

Day 19: May 29, 2011

Your favorite quote:

This is easy for me, it's been the same since high school:

"Silence is the perfectest herald of joy. I were but little happy if I could say how much."
-Shakespeare in Much Ado About Nothing

And I have a second one, for the last 2 years and 11.5 months, For J'sai:

"You were made perfectly to be loved, and surely I have loved you, the idea of you my whole life long."
-Elizabeth Barrett Browning

Day 17: May 29, 2010

A youtube video:

I follow a blog called Single Dad Laughing, which I highly recommend. He occasionally posts pictures, stories, and now a video of his son. I love to see them. His pictures are amazing and his son is beautiful. Enjoy!

Friday, May 27, 2011

Day 15: May 27, 2011

A picture of something you ate today:

30 day challenge: I failed.

I haven't posted since last Saturday. I started the bullet your whole day post, and I got as far as six o clock, but then I moved a bunch of stuff, and set up my room at my mom's house and cleaned, and fell into bed exhausted and haven't been back since. So if anyone is reading, I apologize. I am going to try to catch up. If I can figure out how to predate posts, then everything will be in order. If I can't, well... it will be out of order :)

Thursday, May 26, 2011

Day 14: May 26, 2011

Someone who fascinates you and why:

James fascinates me. He is so big, so strong, could so easily hurt me, but doesn’t, wouldn’t. He has been so many places, seen and done so many things. I find it fascinating to listen to his stories, and amazing that he is interested in me. He is a beautiful and unique person, and I am so glad I met him, and that he is a part of my life. I hope to be fascinated by him for a long time.